Happy New Year fam! Can you believe its 2022? It’s like something they would say in the Jetsons when I was little and I would be like “whoa that’s what the future is going ot be like” lol and look here we are.
I have a long list of blog posts that I want to share this month but after going through some feelings the past few weeks, publishing a 2021 highlights post or best purchases of the year post just didn’t feel right. I promise you those fun, light-hearted posts are coming soon but I just wanted to catch up with ya’ll a bit since I have come home California.
First off, any visit to California is so good. Being with my parents, spending quality time with family and seeing the kids thrive with their cousins is truly the best feeling. For those of you who are new here, I grew up in a very small town. As soon as I had the opportunity to move to Southern California for school I did because I was ready for a more fast paced life but now that I am older with babies of our own, I just love hanging out in good ole Lemoore. I feel very fortunate that my parents raised us around a big community of aunties, uncles and life long friends. Seeing them is just a big reminder of what’s important. Sometimes, it’s easy to get caught up in the things that are offered to us as influencers and as nice as those “things” are, they aren’t the things that are the most important in life.
While we were visiting my family, we received the news that a very close, lifelong family friend of ours was very ill and at the end of his time on earth. My sister Crystal informed me and to be honest I don’t know if I was in denial or what but it took me a few days to even process it all and then on December 26th, he passed. I was fortunate to be with my parents at this time because although my husband is an amazing support system, my parents knew Jeff and they understood the loss. A day or so after, I was sitting in my childhood room and getting the kids clothes together to get them ready for the day and I just started crying. It finally hit me..or maybe I finally let it. I was able to attend a couple of nights of the rosary at his home. With his family, my parents and childhood friends. It gave me a little bit of a sense of peace. Please continue to pray for his family.
After we arrived back in Houston a very good friend of mine informed me her Dad passed away on New Years Eve. My heart broke. Both of these people I viewed as family. This friend of mine and her parents were along side of my parents at court for Landon’s adoption day. After hearing this news, I just lost it on New Years Day.
It was yet another reminder about how life is too short. Both of these men were God fearing men, faithful, kind, givers, selfless….leaving behind such amazing families. I couldn’t help but ask why them?
I’ve been processing this all behind the screen. I’m not at all sharing this because I want sympathy for myself (although I would appreciate it if you could say a prayer for the families. For God to wrap them in love and strength during this time). I didn’t even really know if I should share this here because I felt like it wasn’t my information to share but yesterday Brandon said “you know, it’s okay for you to be sad for you too” and then I just got this overwhelming feeling to share a piece of reality with you all.
If you watched my stories last week or this weekend, you would not have known any of this. It’s easy to share the fun stuff. The hard stuff, not so much.
In the time of year where social media plasters “fresh starts” and “thankful for the best year of my life” all in our faces I just want to say, if any of you are going through a tough time right now, please know you are not alone. I did’t intend for my first post of the year to be a downer but it also didn’t feel right to just throw out any other post when my heart was so heavy right now.
I love ya’ll so much. I feel like I am just rambling now so I’ll end this post here. Praying for all who are going through it right now. May God wrap his arms around you and bring you peace and blessings for the year to come.